Yes, it's true. I'm officially preggers. My one son is 2.5, well actually closer to three and here I am voluntarily doing it again. NEVER thought that would happen.
Between the sleepless nights, and barely existent days-please remind me why I signed up for this a second time? Again there was no draft into motherhood, I signed up on my own accord. Am I ready for this?
I mean as a parent, I already have zero time for myself, does this mean I'll have negative time? What will the first trip to the grocery store entail? Will my husband and I ever have time to ourselves? I remind myself this is temporary; while they are young, that I'll have no life-Or what I used to consider a life.
But I digress, lets not depress anyone out there with my fears.
I have to say the second time around is different. It's less magical in ways, I hurt more. I have had sciatic pain since 6 weeks, and I'm now 17 weeks. I was much more violently ill this time around, and with a toddler running around, I can't just crawl in a hole for the first 3 months. I haven't taken more then 3 belly pictures, and have been showing for a long time already-when I didn't show with my son until 19 weeks.
I have to say I'm more accepting of pregnancy this time around as the first time was a surprise, the growing belly the sore boobs and all that.
I am not as obsessed with every cramp.. but I still have a healthy-albeit a more realistic fear that something might go wrong. I'm way more moody-much to my husbands dismay, and I pee every 5 minutes.
But I have to say I'm looking forward to being a mom again, and I will enjoy my time with my newborn and not worry so much about what the books tell me to do. I will focus on remembering the moments when they're tiny-because as many say (and you find out) they grow so quickly.
I'm at the point in my pregnancy where I can feel movement consistently, which is a nice thing until baby's feet reside in my ribs. The nausea has subsided and I don't generally have to drag my butt through the day because I'm tired.
I just think that next year this time, I'll be the mom of 2 and will have probably lost it by then!

Merry Christmas everyone!